As I wrote earlier in the week, I was out of town for a while, so getting back home this week meant getting back to eating healthy. I didn’t eat well while I was gone so I have gone intensely back to eating right.
It sounds great and I would love to tell you how great I feel but honestly the only thing I can think about is how much I want to eat. I’m not starving myself, but after eating whatever and whenever I wanted since Christmas and even Thanksgiving to some degree it has been an uncomfortable change this week.
I feel like everyone knows I’m not eating anything remotely bad right now and they are all conspiring against me to put pictures on Instagram of food I love but won’t allow myself to eat. Maybe I should avoid social media as well. Although I don’t think it will help because it seems feasible and logical to sprint to Red Lobster right now and eat Cheddar Bay Biscuits until I physically have to stop. I don’t even like Red Lobster.
The hunger I have experienced this week has made me look at other areas in my life where I have slowly shifted over time and not realized how far I have drifted. I have realized, simply because you don’t feel much has changed doesn’t mean it hasn’t actually changed. I am looking at other areas of my life besides my diet and making sure I am where I want to be and haven’t drifted too far.
It can be sobering but taking a honest look at where you are at and where you want to be is necessary. Right now I’m hungry. When I see a picture of food I don’t look at it and think it looks good. I taste it. I want it badly and imagine how good it would be to consume. I’m embarrassed of how strong a desire I have for food right now because I can’t tell you when the last time I have desired a goal or my relationship with God this much.
Eating less causes your body to feel a change. If I didn’t have any goals I wouldn’t feel the physical impact but the long term impact is significant. I wouldn’t have the desire I do. If I hadn’t prayed much or gone to church I wouldn’t feel the physical difference I do right now but overall I would be in worse shape.
Take a look back at the past few months. What have you been hungry for?
I want to hunger for the right things. I want to long for success and you are probably the same. I see other people who are doing what I want to do with my life and I want to be like them.
In order to be like them I know I have to hunger for the right things. I need to act upon it as well. At the end of 2015 the decisions we make right now will have a lasting impact on where we will be on December 31st. Make sure you chase the right things.