Relationships are not easy. I rarely dated throughout my life and almost never had a girlfriend. I don’t really know why I always just liked being single. I’m the epitome of an introvert. I enjoy sitting quietly by myself and reading or watching TV. Being alone does not bother me at all.
I’m getting married Saturday and I still can’t believe it. To say I’m lucky would be the understatement of the century. I don’t know when it will hit me that I’m actually getting married but it hasn’t hit me yet. I never expected the journey leading to this day to go this way but life never goes the way you think it will.
I assumed that I would be single for a while and marry later in life. Twenty-six isn’t exactly a young age to get married but it is much sooner than I ever thought I would get married. God’s timing is perfect and the perfect woman came along at the right time for me. I never will forget running into Morgan at Paradise Park on October 27th 2012. Life has been much different since then (and much better).
According to dictionary.com the definition of joy is: “a source or cause of keen pleasure or delight; something or someone greatly valued or appreciated.” This describes my future wife perfectly. Life is just more fun with her. It makes sense. It blocks out all the noise.
The thought of being married scares me to death. I’m not scared of the commitment, I’m not scared of providing, or anything else that could come to mind. I’m scared because I’m not perfect. I can’t promise that I will be a great husband every day because that isn’t true. I know I will try as hard as I can but I’m going to fall short and that grieves me to think about.
However, that is not what it is about. It is about loving your significant other on days when they disappoint you. It’s about loving them no matter what the bank account looks like, no matter what’s wrong with the house, or what kind of car you are driving. When you find that right person it feels like you have been going through life blindly and suddenly you can see. Everything becomes clear and is brought into focus. I know nothing about marriage but I know with 100% certainty that I am with the woman that I am supposed to be with for the rest of my life. No matter what happens we will have each other. I can’t wait to start the rest of my life on Saturday.